Monday 18 June 2012

I Wish

I wish that I could cry
My feelings I didn't deny and hide them so deep inside
Cry to let the whole world know
My heart is dying in the cold
I wish that I Could cry
I wish that I could cry

Why can't I forget how crying felt
The salty water upon my skin as I released the pain within
How it was for me to share my words of pain in all my tears
Even share my happy times now glad and sad are all inside
The memory of what crying used to be
Each and every day it tortures me
Why can't I forget how crying felt
Why can't I forget how crying felt

If only I hadn't wished my tears away
And became who I am todayWhy did it upset me so much
To cry everytime something hurt me... I was touched
My sadness must've made me blind to forget I need tears when times are kind
And now I have doomed myself to a life destroying feelings that should be felt
How could I have cursed myself like this?
If only I hadn't wished my tears away
If only I hadn't wished my tears away

I am yearning to cry again, three times again and then once more, release whatever it is I store
Yearning to stop using words and use tears
To use all my heart mind body and soul and cry till I can swim cross my emotional holes
Yearning to feel again that which once made me sad
Those little damp balls escaping from my eyes
It's funny how you don't miss something till it's long long gone
Still... I am yearning to cry again
I am yearning to cry again

It's funny how you don't miss something till you don't have it any more
It's funny how something that seemed so small could mean the world to me
I realize now it was a gift, I selfishly threw away
Not realizing that it would come back to haunt me another day

I wish I hadn't wished my tears away
I wish I didn't yearn to cry again
I wish I could forget how crying felt
I wish that I could cry
But I can't
Samuel Alexander

2 comments:

  1. A great introspective poem, Samuel - and this line is absolutely striking and memorable: "I am yearning to cry again, three times again and then once more, release whatever it is I store"

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  2. thanks.... i was just thinking one day i hadn't cried in forever.... and it was my fault. Teenagers so over dramatic:) And as luck would have it that is my favorite line. :) Glad you liked the poem.

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