Tuesday, 18 July 2017

Prayer Unheard

I sent a prayer into the sky, but I don't think God was listening
Didn't hear the desperation, helplessness of my condition
Didn't feel the hurt the pain, couldn't see hope as it went away
Nor see faith as it hid deep in the darkness of my heart that shattered my soul
Couldn't hear it crack nor feel the splinters that exploded like ball bearings in a pipe bomb
Into all the places there was light letting the shadows creep in leaving the pieces of my soul lost in the dark unable to rejoin with each other

Thursday, 4 May 2017

Mission Incomplete

I thought about ending my life today
Put a stop to the pain
Make it through all the rain

I thought about ending my life today
Leave behind all the madness
The hurt anguish and sadness

I thought about ending my life today
But at the moment of exicution
Came to a shocking conclusion

I thought about ending my life today but couldn't ….
I didn't love myself enough to follow through

©Samuel Alexander May 2017

Friday, 14 April 2017

Sharing

Swim with me through waters so pure,
in rivers and lakes and oceans of love.
Fly with me through the clouds, through clear blue skies,
with the eagles, the doves.

No Tears

Today I tried to cry and failed I didn't have the strength
Found I'd passed the point of no return beyond the deep of my emotional wealth

Knocked down the walls of sanity scattering the pieces of my humanity
To the furthest reaches of the land too separate to be made whole again

Swam through the darkest of darks leaving most of me behind
Walked into the light to learn that I only brought the will to survive

Monday, 10 April 2017

When Enough Is Not Enough

Have you ever felt you’ve given so much more than you had
The very air you breathe,
Down to your last breath

Sacrificed too many pieces of your heart
Sold too many parts of your soul
Felt like your physical strength was depleted
Gave up too much of your psychological well being

Sunday, 9 April 2017

Rescued

I don’t know how you did it or even why you tried
What you saw in me was hidden much too deep for me to find
I don’t know how it got this bad, how things got so far gone
Why you came into my life to write all of the wrongs
I couldn’t see how bad it was, see the grey within the dark
Where my path had gone astray, a miscalculation gone too far
In a hole so deep and empty it became my truth, my way of life
What I was before… destroyed, the light left from my eyes
I didn’t see you standing there, couldn’t see you through the fog
Weighted down by my reality, I thought all hope was lost

Saturday, 8 April 2017

Stolen Fruit

Where are the fruits of our hard work through all these years
What happened to our plans, our future, our dreams
The life we were supposed to share
The place we had to go
What did you do with the pieces of my soul that I gave to you so freely
Willingly on the hopes that together we would swim in the seas of love forever