Finding Me

I used to think nothing much of myself

Well I still do but one thing has changed

As a performer, man I thought I sucked major ass

Got on the stage with no class 

Just a dumb ass who thinks he can rhyme

Thinks he can form lines but they always fall short of the mark

Like a pizza without sauce I believed I was cheesy bread in the guise of pizza

Not completely useless but still not quite what I should be

And no matter how much I was told the contrary it didn't matter cause to me... I was just second-rate

There was no need to debate the way I stutter... It's there on tape

How I fumble through big words and small words of my own choosing 

And can never sing anything quite on key

I was fucking awful and never could never get it write

Talked myself down to the ground

Thought my shit was whack and could only see disaster as I looked back on each performance

Confidence... What is that

Charisma... Um... nope didn't have it

Flow... If u mean waterfall... Yeah I fell quite often

A point, a direction, good intentions and ideas that spoke to the masses... Now that at least was there

But if I didn't believe in it then honestly it wasn't there

Didn't exist 

In this war between me and me I was on the side of defeat

But then I realized Me plus Me equals I, and I was the only one defeating Me, so it was all My fault that I wasn't the Me I wanted to be

So we decided, together, to look inside and try to find the problem

Why couldn't I be confident

Why couldn't I speak with the strength of my words

Why couldn't I be an author of gargantuan proportions

Fuck 

Enough is enough and now is the time to get it right

And as I said that the answer came

I am already all these things I just refuse to see it

But like I said things have changed 

Now I realize I got this shit

So um just gonna spit this shit 

Cause ya'll just hatn' cause you ain't got this shit like I got this shit

But this is my shit so you'll have to go find ur own shit

So today I bitchslapped my inner poet into submission told him get his fucking ass in gear and stop being such an asscunt

And now here I stand before you