When Enough Is Not Enough

Have you ever felt you’ve given so much more than you had

The very air you breathe,

Down to your last breath

Sacrificed too many pieces of your heart

Sold too many parts of your soul

Felt like your physical strength was depleted

Gave up too much of your psychological well being

Convinced yourself that it was worth it all

It would pay off in the end, the benefits would come

Just to find yourself alone with nothing but a dream

The hope long gone that it would come to be

Apparently they were the kind that pipes are made of and you must now watch them flow away into the dark

Into the space you thought you’d fill up with the dream that you once passionately believed

Before life crushed you, trampled on you, destroyed you

Removed the joy from your world

Made you question if your past life karma had come back with a vengeance

If failure and depression are the only things for which you are destined

You tried

You gave

You sweated

You teared

Had faith

Believed

Gave up so much through the years

Only to end up where you started

Your passion crushed, faith in humanity discarded

So much time you can't get back

So much wasted love and energy all gone

Never to return

Unless you start all over again

But what if you have enough bad karma to follow you from here to there

You played by the rules, chased, and fought and everyone said, keep on going

Then you hit a space where words were not enough, to keep the fire burning

Maybe you should just stop the music, silence the song, be done with it all, move on

How could it be that more than enough, is not enough, and now you have no more to give

What happens when life wins

Have you ever felt like before you started the battle was already lost

Then you consider, maybe it would be better, if you simply were no more

©Samuel Alexander April 2017