Monday, 18 June 2012

Pigeons

I feed birds bird
Well I feed pigeons chicken
I try to convince myself this is wrong but the more they gather around my bench the more scraps of chicken I discard
Food I paid for with money I don't have
But they jump up beside me desperately seeking the nourishment I have
Never putting their face in my container of food but close enough to touch on the bench beside me

They can feed themselves
The aren't the homeless on the street waiting for someone to care enough to pick them up out of their condition
They aren't one of those starving children you see on those infomercial asking for our pennies
The pigeons will thrive whether I feed them or not
Yet still, here I am, breaking of meat and biting it and using the piece left in my hand to feed to the birds

I reason that it's a different species
Chicken, not pigeon
It's kinda like saying if you feed me Brazillian it's okay
But people are people... I'd still be eating human
But somehow I feel calm as I watch the little birds nip in quick and beat the pigeons to the meat
Some of the pigeons are just bullies on a playground of lined bricks
I love to see that no matter how hard they try the smaller animal always triumphs

I guess what it really is, is that I wish I could be a pigeon
Be able to fly away
Roam the park benches for what the people will throw my way
But I am already human and in need of so many things
That means I'm part of the race of feeders... We are all human
There is no one to feed me
I will never get what I need
And with this reality I continue to feed the birds

Self Identity

In the light I live and breathe
In the light I tell degrees of truth
In the light I see what needs to be done
To keep you oblivious to the me you'll never see
Because I hide when I know you're watching
In the light when I know you can see
Samuel Alexander

Skinny Jeans

The way this feels is excruciating, suffocating. I’m crying out for air, I need to breath –with every step my movement is restricted. I wish I could travel back in time when things were different – when I didn’t feel so trapped, airtight, longing for escape… release. It’s the worst thing to happen to man, oh how I long to burn them –I hate them.

These Fucking,

Skinny Jeans
Samuel Alexander

Love?

Love
What does it mean?
What is it really?
Is it that feeling that makes you all warm and fuzzy inside?
That thing that takes you into a world you never knew?
Is it something that’s traditional?
Boy meets girl, girl meets boy and they consummate their relationship with a bond of trust before marriage
Is it all the things they said it would be?

No
It’s something more
Something so complex it can’t be described in this world or the next
It isn’t the obvious or what we’ve been told

It’s hard
It’s rough
It’s compromise
It’s change
It’s letting go
It’s up
It’s down
It’s not black and white
It’s gray
It’s unexplainable
It’s undefined
It’s perfect because of its imperfections
It’s so intricate that even the best suspense mystery can’t compare to the shocking unknown and creative ways in which love can express itself
Make itself known

So why do we believe in what we are told?
To trust in the obvious
The limited views of what love should be

Love for me is the thing that just is

Why do I love who I’m with?
Well... you know... I... It’s just amazing... It’s not solid
It’s all over the place and doesn’t say much but that’s the beauty of it.

Love is unexplainable

It’s that thing that simply exists
That’s what we should look for
That connection that’s so great so indescribable that the limitations of the human mind and justification can’t label it
That’s what I want
Something so magnificent I can’t explain it
It just is.
Samuel Alexander

Gift

What an awesome gift
I find myself with
I feel as though I am
So wonderfully blessed
To be given such freedom
In such a wonderful kingdom
The land of earth
The place where I was birth
Choice to choose my own path
Choice to choose to smile to laugh
Choice to be happy and choice to be sad
But then there are the down times
The when i'm falling down times
When I"m drowning in fear
Feel depression so near
Covering my head like a cloud
Drowning my soul with doubt
Then they tell me my gift giver always has a plan
That it will somehow work out in the end
And then... it doesnt... and I realise
God's just a kid with an ant farm, he isn't planing anything
Samuel Alexander

Accident

Open
Drip
Drop

Pressure
Clot
Stop

Movement
Open again
Drip
Drop

Accidental
Finger
Scissor
Cut
Samuel Alexander

Flight

I fly on angles wings
Soaring through clear blue sky, as i rise high...
Feel the wind blowing in my face - find rest, peace, tranquility and escape my worries for just a while...
And almost forget to fly back to solid ground
Samuel Alexander