Ninja

I am a voice on the wind
Breathe in breathe out... you've been infected

Injected, connected, intercepted, redirected
Your brain-penetrated, my thoughts have been implanted inside your mind,
Snuck through and taken up residence
Imprinted it with my presence, my essence, my entrance into your mind has gone unnoticed
Your change has been made but you think your the same
Yet my ideas washed over you like waves and melded into yours and trapped you inside your own head with my words instead
Lyrically, flowing
With no way of you knowing that I've impregnated your ideas like onomatopoeias,
I hissed my way into your world and hummed through you weak defenses on a whisper of stealthy linguistic winds
Like a ninja hunting its target, you've been reached, the mission is complete
I've got you in my web now,
Entered your your being and you've been reborn anew in the likeness of my creation
Now the thoughts you once feared are of your own construction
You thought you could take me down but I spat at your hate with my ninja stars and as your scars form they're imprinted with my word-genius and they heal so smoothly no record of me can be seen--though I've become a part of your DNA
Subconsciously, divinely, stealthily, intellectually I pierce through your ignorance with my sword of linguistic matter... I crush your hate and you shatter
And with a few twirls of my syncopated non-chucks I pound my truths into you
Than I slice you with my annunciating dagger, hidden with in my emotional sleeve of spoken-word melodies
My sentences hide in the shadows and attack at a moments notice and soon you'll be quoting me and i'll just stand back and watch as you the prey fall victim to your arrogant ways
You didn't know had mad-ninja-rhythmic-flowing-wordamazing-fantastically-poisonosdart-rhyming-stylings
That flow through your viens, and wash over you like the flood of a broken damn--I cover you
Even from afar cause I have the eyes of a hawk
The heart of a dragon
The skills of the best lioness huntress
Even in the daytime, you're mine
You thought that I just walked away from the challenge but this kungfu master has come back full force, undercover
I had my glasses on but now that they're off I'm in my poetic ninja form
I hit you in plain sight and when you turn around... like magic... I'm gone
Disappeared to leave you standing there slowly being destroyed
Filling all the voids within your soul with a voice that reaches beyond the box you thought you could lock me in
But i've defeated you, like all the rest
I shoot to kill and never miss
I'm a lyrical ninja assassin.

Song

I was just a song lost out at sea

Floating out on the waves, without a soothing melody
Was rippling on the waters without rhyme
Was drowning in the rain
On broken chords
Of shattered dreams

Was doing runs across the keys of strife
Strumming the chords of pain, acoustic rhythms danced and played
The arpeggio of this broken heart
That drums unsteadily
Of dying hope
Of destroyed faith

That slides across the hurt of betrayal
That strings in harmony, with revenge is oh so bittersweet
A solo that could not stand on its own
I’m what’s left at that place
When you find a house, is not a home

A poem that suddenly lost its rhyme
A tornado that could not spin, mother nature without father time
A pen filled up with ink that never writes
A fish that didn’t know how to swim
A storm without the raging winds

I’m how a broken heart would sound out loud
The voice of agony, a lone mans cry of misery
I am the sound of a falling star
The ripping noise you hear
Of when a worlds, been torn apart

This is what you get when hot is really cold
The distant lost remains, of a soul left all alone
A soul that has been ripped out in cold blood
I’m only a shadow
Of something lost, something long gone

These are the eyes of a poisoned man
Who gave his aura up for love, to have it spit back out again
Looking at me is seeing a blackened heart
That has been shot right through
And darkened with life’s poisoned darts

This is what hope looks like when it’s been drugged
What happiness would look like, if it had just lost its smile
The form of revenge when it’s without end
The picture of what peace looks like
When it has been twisted, into hate

How life would be if it had lost its breath
I am the moon that shines, when the sun just wouldn’t set
A rainbow that only shun in red
I’m what a man becomes
When love has just gone up and left

But it feels better when I say I was
Because then I can pretend, that I am not who I am
And if all that I am becomes I was
Then I can create a new I am
Better than the I am that I was

I was just a song lost out at sea

Element

Inspiring
Enticing
Invigorating
Exciting
As loud as a lion and soft as a whisper
Angry and wild
Light and smooth
Swirling
Hurling
Catching me by surprise
I'm intrigued by your presence and cowered by your destruction
I hear you around me
A music so familiar
And you come in many forms wet and dry
Like a ninja you move with skill and agility
Bending all to your will
And on your calm days I close my eyes and am relaxed by your touch... how you feel
And then I wonder if you too can feel
You live with all the power that nature can wield
But also you can die
Instantly
Disappear
Nothing is quite as amazing as you are to me
I am captivated by the wind

Me and Alone

Alone is my best bud

Solitude is the only friend I have 

He comforts me and keeps me sheltered from the cold world

Says things that remind how he is the only one that loves me

Convinces the voices in my head to join in on his plan to keep me inside this box that they tell me is full of all the love that only they can give me

Here I feel alive wanted needed

The world, what is there for me out there

Nothing but heartache and backstabbing and dishonesty... disguised as friendship that is only there to sail on the wings of my dreams without doing anything for itself

To leave me wondering what went wrong, 

How it is all my fault and fooling myself into believing that the world, people, would not do such things to hurt me

That was when they saved me

The voices took me to a special world were all things created are mines to have, love and hold

They introduced me to Alone

Me and him, we are inseparable

We are lovers in a realm that no one else can touch, destroy, or penetrate... because through Alone I can put up a wall so strong that even the most advanced laser missile can not penetrate it

With the voices holding up the wall even if such a thing did occur my enemies would be slaughtered

They would feel the raft of the man the made me

Destroyed, pulverized and broken into a former being of themselves

Aura stolen and used to increase the strength of the person I am only because of them

Those are the only times me and Alone leave our home

When opportunity arrises to defeat those who betrayed us

No nothing can stop us

Me and him together are such a perfect team that the world cowers in our presence and bends to our every whim

The world is our canvas and we choose to cover it in the red of the blood they forced us to bleed

You said you cared

You said you loved me

You said we were friends and you would do nothing to harm me

These are the words the voices repeat to me leaving a subliminal imprint of everything the universe proved to be lies

Yet somehow I survived and realized I'm more than I ever was with you

Now I'm all powerful

An unstoppable force of your creation, and now the student has become the master

I have become the rule maker of the game

And you shall feel the pain of all the tears I cried and swim in the seas of shame you made me feel that was yours and not mine

And as I sit here in my private place, with Alone's words of vengeance fueling my fire

I realize I am cold

I feel nothing anymore

Dont even feel a rise from the revenge that is my life

Each ruined soul no longer brings the rush of vindication my soul used to long for

My heart no longer understands emotions of any form

How could this have happen that even Alone has betrayed me

He promised to love me, care form me, hold me, save me from all that this planet had done to me, so why am I so far gone I dont even know who I am anymore

And for just one moment the voices go silent

And it's just me and Alone and clarity finally finds me

It's never been me and Alone

I am alone, we are one in the same, I've been swimming in my own pain

Getting lost in a world of my own already admitted creation and never new Alone was also part of my imagination.

Now the voices are back trying to send me again down that path, but its to late

I have figured out the truth, and though the noise wont stop I can ignore their words

I am no longer happy they introduce me to Alone

For he has betrayed me just like the rest

I've reached the end where there was only one more person left to do me harm.... myself

Now I can truly say it was everyone that made me

Alone

Today I Soar

I sometimes wonder where the pigeons go
When people aren't here to feed them where do they fly.... 
Where would I fly 
If I had wings to spread and soar where would I escape too


I am a pigeon flying high, 
As I watch the people walking by. 
What's that I spy, with my little eye? 
I think I'll ask them for a fry.... A crumb?
Anything, I'm forever living off what others give me
I have wings but I've never seen outside this park, the confines of my life
So I'm going to spread my wings and soar boldly into the unknown


One more year as I lay and ponder .. 
Never been and never known so I can't help but wonder where my wings will fly as time passes by in this park called life that right now is causing me so much strife..
Just one more year and 'll be on my way to living an unknown life


I'll use this year wisely to pack all that I need
Courage strength determination love and hope
And most importantly... my dream 
And the faith to keep it afloat cause now... my year is done


Today I put my faith in my wings and the wind 
The creation of a new me begins as I soar above these park gates
And as I fly through the big blue sky I realize there's no real need to cry.
Or maybe there is, for all the beauty before my eyes
Mountains and valleys such glorious things all knew to me
And I realize my fear to leave kept me sheltered from the world but not any more--Because now... I can soar! 
Much further then before 
As far as my wings will take me 
No longer afraid of what is unknown because it is now known to me 
This is my life... a journey of flight with the wind to carry me through


The sensation on my face seems fresh and new though i’ve flown before this is different
With each beat of my wings I feel more free, 
A new feeling takes over as I do that which I've always done 
Though terrified I find myself putting my faith in the wind, 
Facing my fears instead of hiding 
Sharing the load has allowed me to see better within, and the beauty of blue skies as my soul finds its wings for the first time and I realize... I'm flying!
Through timeless specks of blue and white I soar above.. weightless with the wind. Nothing can stop me now cause I'm just too determined
I am hope on the wings of freedom.

I Dont Have Time

I dont have time--But I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders
Life crashing against my back like rolling boulders
Flattened to thin and squeezed into a full cabinet of folders
I need to file myself correctly, more effectively, but the reality is-
-I dont' have time--To deal with the rain, pain, emotions that come in waves and sweat out like cold drinks in coasters
To deal with the rings left behind when the coaster I can not find
Staining the table of my life, forever marked in strife
I know I can remove it
Make it disappear
Leave the table so spotless as if the glass had never been there, but-
-I dont have time--To look, to search, to find, something more, something forgotten
Well... more accurately it has been lost
Because, I can still feel it burning inside me
Crying for attention
Calling out my name
It no longer want's to be caged,
It wants me to stop take a moment and see
Breathe life into it again, help it to be released
And I cant help but agree but the problem is-
-I dont have time--To stop, to slow down, to smile, to laugh, to do much of anything besides, keep going, in motion, no slowing down
Life wont let me fall of the train
Life wants to keep me playing, keep me in the game, it's insane
How I've crashed and burned but have yet to see my wounds
My heart is singing such a sad tune, wondering why I havent tried to fix it
But i'm too consumed with just simple everyday living
So forward I will go
I cant take a break because if i do it might be the last I take
Life threatens me with loss if I dont play with it
It's selfish and wants what it wants, all take and no give
But I''ll get to you, I know you need healing
I know cause I can feel it
Deep inside I hear it
My soul hasn't died
It still thrives on
Beating along with my heart as it hums its song
So i'll answer
Wait.... life is calling
Again myself has been neglected
I'm falling
I know what you need, and oh how I ache to give you your freedom but unfortunately-
-I dont have time--To cry

Cry Of the Unseen

I am what's right in front of you, that you can not see
The one standing beside you, lost in your shadow
If I got trampled on, damaged destroyed
You wouldn't even realise, take notice I was gone

You tell me things but expect no answers
Spread words of kindness but they get lost in the air
Nothing you say with a note of care reaches me
Cause in your minds eye I am nothing, just nothing

I am that tangible thing thrown aside
The one that you touch, interact with, live with, breathe with
And no mater how real or present I may seem--nothing you do is ever meant to affect me

You look down from above and see only the ground--look at me dead-on, and see what's behind...
Where I stand... I reach out... My hand... For you to hold,
But you cant ignore what you don't see so my hand is just left here floating, just floating
Not knowing that it's been neglected cause how can it be neglected when to you it was never seen

I'm the one you donate to, to show your good will
The one you say you help, the one for whom you feel
But each day we talk, and eat, together we laugh
Or you laugh and I.. What?  I guess I just pretend

You don't see that I hurt, am pulled down by your words
Your actions towards me, your lack of reaction to things I do to you
But I guess nothing has transpired, in fact I know this to be true
Cause you never see me though I can see you

I am the one that cries alone in the sunlight
The one that sees only dark in the middle of day
The one who's darkness is illuminated by one candle, slowly fading away to remind me of my solitude
I am here for you to pretend to notice, but what's my name, say my name, i know you don't know it
I'm just an empty space where a person should be
In your eyes I'm the one that ceases to be

The one you pass by in an empty hall
The one who's voice is never heard no matter how hard I call, I cry, I plea
I'm the one who's heart you claim to love
But how can you love what you don't see, what isn't there
How can you understand something you touch but never feel
Something you hold but cant identify as real
Something so solid, yet it slips through your fingers like water
A pillar so strong but you step through it as easy as a doorway

There is no way you can ever know what it is to truly see that which your soul refuses to acknowledge is even alive, human, a being of substance
Yes, yes,  I am all of these things, or maybe not cause your essence gives my presence no validity

So I am that black hole that is full of all the nothing that creates all the things that people refuse to see
I am the voice that cries so loud it gets lost on the waves of the selfish and the proud
I am the tears that flow into rivers that only I can drown in as you walk above as Christ
I am the pain of a thousand years that is caused by each time you stare and see nothing but the atmosphere
I am the soul lost in the universe of all the things you don't even know you threw away
I am the blood that stains from being trampled to death that fertilizes the soil that grows the flowers round your grave
I am the heart that beats out of synch because it's been damaged by your lack of observation--your lack of upkeep for a entity that is dying

You destroyed me simply by not knowing that I am
I'd wish you a thousand deaths but it would be futile
I'd curse you, I'd stab you, I'd murder you, murder you
But it would have no effect, you wouldn't feel a thing, how can something you don't recognize cause you any pain

So into the darkness, the shadows of night,
And burning into daytime, under harsh rays of sunlight,
Is where I shall always go, where I reside
For I am, I am, I am nothing... I am nothing,
I am the opposite of here even though I am here
For you are blind towards me
I am invisible